My email reminder that I had a blog post due on January 2nd was a surprise. The post was on my calendar; I should have known it was coming. But I didn't. So, I was trying to decide what to write about for January 2nd and "A Year in Review" seemed like it had to happen. Blog post at the beginning of a new year--who wouldn't write a post that reviewed their year?
The sticking point (and there's always a sticking point) is that I'm a private person and my year in review requires me to mention some personal things. I hemmed and hawed and even created other new posts in my mind, but a new year is all about facing things that scare you, so here it goes.
2013 in Review
By all public measures, 2013 was a fantastic year. The triumphs part of the year is pretty obvious. Professionally, I went from having ZERO books published in 2012 to having two books published in 2013. And, A Promise for the Baby is out this month, Weekends in Carolina is scheduled for June and I'm writing book five (Book five! Can you believe it?). It seems like I went from being just another person pounding the keys to having books in Walmart overnight.
The trials part of the year is less public, and yet also painfully obvious. While I was publishing romances, my marriage fell apart. This also seems to have happened overnight (though like writing, I'm sure it took time and effort). I have been having to learn to talk and think about myself in a different way and I have not always been successful at it.
But the trial also comes with blessings. I am surrounded by really wonderful people. Before this year, I would have been able to say they were great, but I'm not sure I really felt how blessed I was in every atom of my body and down to the very core of my soul. I know that now. I hope it's a lesson I don't forget when all of this passes.
Looking forward to 2014
What does this mean for me in 2014? I'm sure there are still lots of changes to be had. I'm learning how to be by myself. The opportunities and challenges of my new life are tied up in one another; I hope to be worthy of them both. Professionally, while at times it has been hard to sit down and write about two people falling in love, writing and reading romance has been a constant reminder that I do believe in love and the joy of sharing your life with another person.
I don't make New Year's Resolutions, but I'm toying with the idea of one this year. I'd like to be better about concentrating on my blessings and less on my struggles. Congratulate myself more on my successes and castigate myself less on my failures. Be a kinder, gentler person both to myself and to others. That seems a worthy goal. I'm not sure how to measure it, but it is something I can reach for. If anyone has suggestions, I'd love to hear them.
So, what about you? Share your triumphs, trials, blessings, and hopes for 2014. We can count those blessing together.